Monday, 21 August 2017

Letter to My Husband 3


Dear Future Husband, 

This would be the third letter I'd write to you in the span of a month. You must really be on my mind or close by lol. It's 5:41 a.m and I have one question on my mind; are you a man that sees me?

You see I want to be seen by you. I want you to see the potential in me. I want you to see the places that God is taking me but also the places I've been. I want you to see right through my bullshit because I put defensive walls up sometimes. And I may act out, but can you still see my vulnerability? Can you see my fragility and at the same time my strength? Can you see my worth? Do you see the crown on my head because I'm royalty baby. Can you see that I belong to the King of kings?  Cause if you can see that, you wouldn't treat me just any kind of way. I want you to also see the future with me, to see the kind of life that we would live and the kind of people we would become. 

So I ask again, are you a man that sees? Are you a man with a vision? Because as much as I want to be loved by you, I want to be seen by you. 

Love, 
Your wife who wants to be seen...

Saturday, 19 August 2017

World Humanitarian Day


Happy World Humanitarian Day!!!

If you've been following me for a while or know me personally, you know that I see myself as a humanitarian at heart. And so, it was only natural that I did an event to honour this day, even though it was so last minute. You really don't want to know the story. I had procrastinated for so long on organising an event and eventually got my act together at 10a.m yesterday. Needless to say, for an impromptu event, I am glad at the turn out and how it went.

It was a roundtable discussion on the humanitarian issues in the North East and individuals who worked in organisations in that field were in attendance. Some of the organisations there were Abuja Global Shapers Community, Oxfam, Victims Support Fund, Stand to End Rape, Arm the Child NGO, the Presidential Committee on North East Initiative, The Presidency, Leadership Newspaper among others. And I'm so glad that I did this because I walked away more informed than I walked in. It was truly inspiring hearing these people talk about what they've seen, what is being done and their intellectual opinions on the crisis. Some of the issues that were raised are:
  • The lack of pyschosocial support to people in the North east
  • The failure of the Federal Government in learning from the mistakes of the Biafran War humanitarian crisis
  • The need for better media coverage and less underrepresentation by the media
  • Addressing the Almajiri system in the North and the vulnerability of children to extremist ideas and misinterpretation of the Quran 
  • Having organisations that more proactive about their interventions and going beyond IDP camps in to the North East to affected communities
  • The lack of interest amongst average Nigerians due to unbelief, poor media representation or tribal division 
  • The need to disarm children from negative mindsets and arm them with education 
  • Addressing the motive of why children of insurgency/war want to become soldiers in the future etc
Through this event, I'm inspired to continue the dialogue and can't wait to organise the next one. Anyways, did anyone else observe World Humanitarian Day?
"Do your little bit of good where you are. It's those little bits of good put together that overwhelm the world." Desmond Tutu

Sunday, 6 August 2017

Through The Years


I always say that I once asked God to help me forget and He did. I have a very selective memory and cannot for the life of me remember a lot of things. I hear stories of things I've done in the past and I'm amused because I genuinely cannot remember... I'm always sure to let people know that I have a short memory so they don't take it personally when I don't remember a lot of things.

However now, I think I want to remember. I'm tired of not remembering a lot of things.

Tonight I sat on the floor and went through my old journals. I've always kept a journal for as long as over a decade and I'm so grateful that I have. Flipping through my journals today, I was forced to walk down several memory lanes that my brain had conveniently forgotten. But I was also grateful because I saw how I've grown over the years.

As I read, I saw the girl who tried to victimise her way out of every thing, struggled with friendships in high school and sought attention from all the wrong sources.

I saw the girl who jumped from one bad relationship to another. I'm glad I saw this because I noticed a pattern, which I'm taking to the Lord in prayer.

I saw the girl who wrote a letter to God daily and shared her fears, frustrations and hopes for the future.

I saw a poem that my late cousin wrote to me that made me break down on my bedroom floor. God bless your soul Barka, you're terribly missed.

I never want to stop journaling and I hope that I pass my journals down to my daughter one day so she sees how her mum came of age. I find that it's important to write things down, I have even this blog as a journal. I read some posts and can't believe I wrote them or what inspired them. All in all, I'm grateful for these reminders of how I've grown and what I've been through.